YSunday, September 11, 2005
heyzzz...
werk was not as i expected it to be..but as for normal i HAD to o/t cuz the am shift regulars are late..heh. but its all good cuz that means MORE pay..hehe..
nothing much happened actually all of us practicaly slacked after cleanin the outlet..and then we stoned ourselves and crapped about things that shouldnt be mentioned here [cause it's damn derrty thanks to ted and khairul] from 4am till abt say 6?? yepz..
then we went behind the bar and crapped further till Ted [who was once a player but now a devoted boyf..no doubt cuz of his looks] said one thing that struck me..
"we are guys..and all that we are supposed to do is just to grant women their wishes"
-states some kind of vulnerability in us female species..but i cant dare myself to retaliate..cuz i noe that it's true..sometyms..we just want something..so bad..
that we forsake the consequences..
so i cant say that we are not vulnerable..
cuz i noe that we are..it's just in our nature to want to be loved and pampered aint it?
and to know that u are wanted and etc..it's just in every woman..every gurl..
BUT sometimes i think we tend to not use our heads and hearts at the same tym..
we just go on with instincts..tellin ourselves that "he's the one!"..when he's not
or maybe "he could be the one who can bring me thru tis cuz he's been there"..when he's only been there once
or simply through obligation cuz he's helped u soo much that u duno how to repay his kindness..
maybe this is the reason y there are so many unwanted pregnancies...
cuz u just dun think before giving such a special and sacred part of u to that guy who is not even certain that he is gona be THE ONE u will end up sayin your vows with..
and to think about forever??
i duno..but this is just wat i believe in.that ur virginity is just somethg that u shud keep and save for that one person u noe is gona make u happy..through marriage and a bond that u noe will not be broken..cuz u've sifted every other guys..and chose him..and knowing that he chose u too.
and yes Irfan..i noe that this is just a belief.
but wat is wrong with putting it to practise??
i dun think any gurl would wana go around and hear tis guy tellin another guy..
"oh!that gurl?!yeah..i FUCKED her".
if your one of those gurls who dun mind..tell me.
cuz i tink that ur amazingly insane [pardon me].
bottom line is..i just don't understand why..sometimes we just do things without even thinking and we had to just stoop so low till we put our dignity and pride in question. why don't we recognize wat we deserve? and that we are more than capable to stand alone..?
why should we let our fragility be the dominant strength wen we've got our brains and wisdom?
that's what i tink we female just didnt or forgot to consider..
hence, making the men feel superior and giving them no sense of guilt cuz well..
"they are just doin wat u want them to do.."
[if only we can think..b4 doing or giving anything..
we won't be vulnerable =( i hate tis part of a woman]
_callous_ was here with you at
